its such a terrible feeling when it seems like my friends are enjoying their holidays to their fullest while i sap around and measure the rate my leg hair grow, which is yet another reason for my misery because i have to veet like every 10 days, which is super troublesome and i completely hate the stupid in-shower veet because its not as thorough as the normal one. bah! i should just wait for money to fall from the sky and then go for the permanent hair removal thingy.

then again, if money did fall from the sky, i think i'll just spend all of it in the ridiculously alluring lv/chanel/fendi/ysl boutiques along orchard road. gheesh.. -_-"

anyhow.. i was recounting the fates of my lucky arsehole friends who are in australia, taiwan, hongkong, and who are planning their irritating (day) trips to bintan, jb, genting and bkk, and sulking my face green, complaining about not even bringing me shopping, when my darling boyfriend asked me if i would like to watch a movie.

yala.. watch movie only happy already.


so i proceeded to ask kes if she and zhiyong had plans for the night, and she said they were planning to catch warlords. and raymond tan, the once upon a time andy lau fan (he claims to be), jumped at the opportunity to catch something he was interested in, rather than have me insist we watch the enchanted, to which he has dodged out of since it started showing like damn long ago. humph!

was intending to catch the one at 2225 but because tickets were out, and ray and zhiyong, being the uncle they are and not wanting to waste the trip to town (we were at ps by the way), we ended up having to wait till 0120, which is the next available timing.

and so we sat at the ps food court, after having prata supper at this nearby place, waiting for stars to drop and christmas to come.




oh yes. we were there until the lights went out. and kes was whining about zhiyong playing on his psp and not attending to her, and whining about ray and i playing on our ds-es and not attending to her, when ray decided to be irritating to me instead and lent her his ds.

i think i might have influenced yet another friend to get a ds, especially after i mentioned ah fang has one too.. ^^

ah fang when you come back i pass you the games k? and then we can multi-player. and i wont have to keep winning at those IQ games because i only get to play with ray. *yay*



oh.. i got a hair cut the other day, and i quite like it, other than its making me look stupid when i wake up in the morning. kes's bangs are nice too. she likes that she no longer have to draw brows, and she proudly showed me her undrawn brows underneath that thick bangs. -_-"

and ya, ray's new super expensive phone has super power flash. the new super expensive phone that sucked out his funds for my christmas present. and i'm still thinking about whether or not to get him his. think i will. even though he's definitely not getting me anything, and even though i'm totally broke. i'm such a nice girlfriend.

warlords was nice. takeshi kaneshiro damn shuai. i think i might have orgasmed had it not been ray who was sitting beside me holding my hand, and kes, who was oohing and uhing audibly on my other side. anyways, watch the show and tell me what you think about it. its like the more i think about it, the more i dont know what to think about it, and its driving me nuts because kes and ray like dont get what i was trying to say.


oh, star dust was damn nice. i only just watched the show. ^^

and before i flutter off to dreamland, just in case ah fang has not watched it..



maybe its because i was watching with ray when i watched it for the first time, and he kept saying how much it feels uncomfortable, the way he sings. but watching it again now made me feel the way i felt when ah fang and i tuned in to 大小爱吃 back in the taipei teacher's hostel. it omg-ed the hair out of my pores.

i wonder what's come into me these days. i'm missing that obnoxiously irritating raymond tan more than i have ever imagined i would. its like the more i see of him, the more i miss him.

and i hate it.

i completely hate it. i completely hate being that love-struck puppy that i've become the past few weeks. i completely hate this incredibly vulnerable feeling that puts me at a position where i sit by the pathetically falling apart phone, waiting and hoping ray would call soon.

but of cuz ray being ray, makes it alot better by calling often enough for me to not sink into that depressive mood a year and a half ago.


so it is. with a terribly aching back and completely sore feet that i sit on my comfortable and slightly smelly bed complaining about what a bore my life has become after the end of the exams. i'm rather wishing it was still exam period. i'm rather missing that hype brought about by the stress of exams. the hype that is so missing from my ridiculously monotonous life. and i'm supposed to be having the best time of my life now at 21, no?

gosh. if this was the best time of my life indeed, i might as well end the tedium of this colourless existence.


pump some life into my being, wont you?!

it doesnt help that raymond tan, the impressionable 25 year old is getting involved into things that he is not sure of and is asking me for my two cents worth, to my immense exasperation. i dont want to be your mother. i want to be the pathetic, loserish, dependent, meowish girlfriend who cannot stand without holding on to you for support.

in short, i want to be stupid. stupid people really have got it better dont they? for one, they dont realise they're stupid. just like the ugly and/or the irritating never realise their abhorrence.

and it doesnt help that me with my terribly aching back and completely sore feet has to put on a straight, delightful face to daddy's queries as to where i have been the entire day. 'daddy, i have been working, because i feel bad squandering the money you earn from waking up at 5am every morning, at which time, i have been up watching pathetic dvds on my laptop, pretending that my heart does not ache from hearing you wake up so early in the morning, pretending to be asleep.'

but of course i didnt say that. but of course i put up that half-hearted plastic smile and waved my way through his, i hate to say this, irritating questions.

it is with guilt that i slouch here over my old and slowing laptop, hearing didi answer daddy's harmless questions in a way that completely invites chiding.


and so it is with guilt and the utmost irritation (because raymond tan is rambling on non-stop and rambling nonsense non-stop) that i end my entry and dwelve into harry potter and the half-blood prince for the thousandth time. will somebody buy me the first 5 books. i want the adult cover. and i want hard cover. thanks.

after switching off the lights in the car (i think we were looking for baby's phone),

my stupid boyfriend (msbf): dear 这样看很美 leh..

*on lights again*

msbf: 哦! 圆圆..

-_-"


那个越吃越胖的臭男人竟然好意思说我圆！ i shall embark on a plan to get him to become 1000000000 times his current size now. stupid raymond tan. humph!!

(i know its not the first time. but the tui-ness is still there no matter how many times he does it.)