as much as i would love to drown u in my cantankerous depression, that which i have submerged myself in, i'd rather make this a happy happy entry. afterall, the astute bombshell who came up with this ingenous saying 'i'll bring smiles to the faces of those around me when i'm sad. at least then, i can rub some happiness off them.' is none other than urs truly.

bah.. anyways.. smelly fang still haven send me the pictures from that time yet. humph! so inefficient one. but, i still have a whole lot of pictures waiting to blog about. ^^

i really ought to be busy studying for my bio psych paper which is like on saturday and which i have not started on yet. i have no idea what came into me this sem, for the same time last semester, babe and i were busy securing the best window seats in central library from the ah tiongs and the ah nehs and the other last minute buddha leg huggers. i keep having this 'my cap cannot possibly drop any further' thought, which is really true, but u never know, and it is keeping me from my books!! urgh!!

bah. i'll start studying come wednesday when i go join suting at smu. dunno why that nus psych major wanna go smu to study. but oh well. nearer my house, and supposedly emptier. in the meantime, pictures!!


first up, before i start my deluge of ray-ness, uncle man!! after u see the following, u're likely to subscribe to the fictitious notion that bizi is a bully. wahaha!



okie, so these pictures were taken a damn long time ago. (like u cant tell he's wearing that christmasy reindeer hairband.) but since i'm going to post up uncle man, i might as well post from the beginning.


uncle man, in MY adidas jacket.


uncle man's very pweety nails. ^^ (my toe nails are in this combi now. and ah bao absolutely hates it.)


i was so fed up with lao wu puo that i went to break chopsticks. then uncle man tried breaking with his nostrils. really. this is wat makes work bearable.


seriously, the stone pot/bowl thingy is very heavy.


that vainpot went to curl his lashes.

ah bao seems to like uncle man alot. he was saying the other night, 'cannot talk to other guys on msn wor.' then he added, 'can talk to uncle man only'.. -.-"


i realise i've been taking pictures of bao kissing me, and i rarely take pictures of me kissing him back. so here. this was taken the day we went to watch 'meet the robinsons' and havent i told u its a great show? why arent u watching it yet, huh?


ah bao's favourite picture of the night. because i am blurred. bao always say 'bi very pweety when the lights are dim' knn. means bright bright see clearly is ugly la. humph!

oh. i had to crop it like that because my mimi looks somewhat selacious. -.-"

we went to watch '200 pound beauty' on saturday night, and i at least looked nice before the show.



my boyfriend looks damn shuai in that first picture. i like. ^^

oh, and this is the after.


sibeh swollen the eyes, i tell u. the one good thing that i learnt, was that my majorlica majorca mascara is waterproof. and so is the face shop eyeliner.

and oh, the show's damn nice too. its because of this that i've made up my mind to go learn korean this holiday. away with the lousy subtitles and dubbing. i will learn and master the language in the 3 months to come. and then i shall smugly go ask for my payrise. now that i can speak korean, i dun see why they cant pay me the same rate they pay the koreans.

who wanna join me?

oh yes, speaking of holiday plans, i'm going to work my ass off and save as much money as i possibly can (which will amount to very little) because i wanna go taiwan with ah fang in october!! actually, i also dunno go for wat, but i just wanna go la. ^^

babe says she's going to bring her 'chicken nuggets brother' after he finishes his exams, and she totally forgot we had our exams. but oh well. i'm going to go still. blehs.

and then, i'm trying to convince mummy to go korea in december. when uncle man goes back. free lodgings and tour guide. okie, maybe not lodgings, but definitely got free guide. daddy was just complaining about how his tour group of aunties made his trip so much less enjoyable. haha. ^^

honey, u wanna go?


anyways, back to my photo flood. ^^

i've been complaining incessantly about becoming fatter recently, and then i bugged ah bao to bring me with him when he went to wash his van that day. i was telling him i wanted to help. so..



my kingkong sup pao super sup kae boyfriend. erm, he's really abit smelly here, cuz it was damn humid and he was sweating away. but i like. ^^

oh, and he was wearing gloves because he cut his hand the other day when the fan dropped from the table and the cover flew off from the thing and then one of the blades broke and assaulted my bao's helpless hand, all because according to him i kicked the mattress that hit the fan and caused it to lose balance and fall and yada yada, while we were that-one that-one ing. actually no, we havent started, and the whole chain of events plus ah bao's bleeding hand made us lose wateva mood we were in. major turn off. stupid fan.

anyways, back to the pictures. being tall has its advantages. for instance,



anyways, i've been wanting to do this for a long time,


still doesnt quite capture that he's 20cm taller than me. i'm 168 for that matter. which is why i can still wear my 4" wedges happily. ^^

u didnt see me helping? i was! i was busy, erm, studying the snails,


they attached themselves to the wall by the carpark and i was really busy studying if they were moving. -.-"

and oh cuz, i was busy taking pictures of my boyfriend, and erm, falling asleep in the van. hees. ^^

and so, to award me for my hardwork, ah bao bought me this,


bird nest!!

fake bird nest. i actually finished it despite its completely artificial taste. and if u must know, i didnt finish the one that mummy double-boiled for me the last time she did that, which was ages ago. humph!

maybe if i had really been helping ah bao, he would get me real bird nest, complete with the pao sim (which i love the bitter bitter taste) and all. ^^

we had pizza for dinner that day. because i proudly declared that my sorethroat has healed. but then, thanks to the drumlets and the 2-3 slices that i had, i'm now coughing like mad again. tamade.


us, sending me home.

actually, maybe i'm coughing because of that milo dinosaur. urgh! ya, i think tts the case.


and then today..


i happen to think i look quite nice today, but bao refused to take more picture with me. urgh! smelly bao.


i am so monotonous. i am so boring. i am so uninteresting!! i am becoming such a teeny boper blogger, with all my 'u're so cuddly i like u' boyfriend posts.

reality bites. my reality is but an ugly truth. i'm far from happy these days, but i'm not willing to let this become some avenue for my frustration, like how the old blog was. when u indulge in anger, it becomes some cruel cycle that sucks u into unhappiness. when i blog, i shall blog only about happy things, think happy thoughts to blog about. and then, even if it bores the hell out of u, at least it's made me happy in the process.

i used to blog about how sad i am, how many problems bug me down, how fast i'm sinking into depression, and they worry the hell out of those who read my blog and who care about me. i am emotionally unstable, that much, i'll admit. that much, sadly, will always be part of me. but these days, i've become too skeptic to even become depressed. sad, but true.

i know who my friends are. and even though i rarely reach out to u, because tts just the way i am, i know u are there for me if i'll ever need u. i know who my friends are. and when i'm depressed, when i'm sad, i will reach out to u, instead of having to resort to this detached removed channel of blogging.


i've been wanting to say this for a long time,

u'll never have to write me another letter. nor do u have to keep checking on my blog to see if i'm alright. i really am. if i'm not, i promise u'll be the first to know. (apart from ah bao, who i will undoubtedly amplify everything to. girls always act ke lian and become this helpless little kitty cat in front of their boyfriends anyways.)

i'm sorry if i made u feel unimportant. because u always have been, and will still always be, the bestest best friend i can have.

i love u honey. ^^


urgh! people is complaining that i blog too slowly and that people has fallen asleep on people's comp desk. yada yada. as if these people blog as regularly as i do.