the boyfriend is a gaming siao. in fact, a smoking gaming siao. half a month into the relationship and i can see us quarreling over the number of cigarettes he smokes a day and the amount of time he spends on his WoW or PS2..


this is the second or third time i've been stuck in his house like that.. now u know it really isnt all that awkward when my msn nickname reads 'stuck in a room with 4-5 guys'.. all of whom, gaming siaos who doesnt pay me any attention while i bask in my movies..


but really, other than the fact that ray smokes hell of a lot, and spends more time gaming than all the other activities combined, he really is the cutest, sweetest boyfriend in my whole entourage of ex-es..


he entertains me when i'm bored..



and continues doing so, even in the midst of gaming..



but bizi is hard to please, so he ends up looking like this most of the time.. ^^



he cooks for me in his sexy cute boxers when we wake up in the mornings, without expecting me to wash the dishes.



okie, fine it doesnt look very appealing.. tastes nice though..


my boyfriend is ridiculously cute, especially when he says, and insists i'm cute.. or when he refuses to hug me when i throw tantrums in public.. he's cute when he's driving and then suddenly make funny faces when he realizes i'm staring at him.. and when he sings and then makes up his own lyrics because he cant remember the actual ones.. he's cute when he cracks jokes which are not funny, to which jonathan (his friend) will always laugh.. he's most cute when he pats my nicely tied up hair and messes it up, leading me to have a love-hate relationship with that action.. and also when he makes his friends and his mum play mahjong with me because he knows i want to..

i love ray alot. and everyday, i seem to love him even more than i did the day before. everytime i look at him, it makes me want to love him more. even when i'm angry that he's smoking again.. even when i'm angry because its been 2 hours and he's still gaming when he said he'd go bath.. love makes u blind. makes u overlook some of the ugly side to things. and ray's cuteness makes it easier to overlook these ugliness..

perhaps there will come a day when love is no longer enough for me to overlook these things.. maybe one day he might realize he's really not able to stand my neuroticism.. but that day is most possibly a long way ahead. in the meantime, i should just bask in my saccharine sweetness and not think that much. ray secretly worries i think too much, and sometimes, i kinda think so too. therefore, i need to provide my active geminian imagination with some positive feed lest it invest in too much unhealthy thoughts.

an ex boyfriend once told me that in any relationship, communication is the key to its success.. (sounds very much like something that someone will say.) i've since learned that communication isnt all there is to it, because if it was, i wouldnt have broken up with that boyfriend, or rather, he wouldnt have left with me. with ray, i've come to see that more important than communication is the ability to laugh things off, the ability to move along together, on a same pace, at the same rate. and because he is perpetually clueless half the time, and makes the most inappropriate comments at the weirdest times, i really just cant stop smiling like a goofball when he's around.

my boyfriend makes my day. just thinking about it makes a seemingly bad day feel better. after going through all those failed relationship, i know what the odds are that this is just the initial 'honeymoon period'. i dun need to be told. i want to believe. and in order to do that, all these skepticism and negativity shall be banished to a realm far from the reaches of my imaginary threshold.

in the meantime, i ought to force ray to read, since reading is my one true indulgence, and i shall secretly train myself to at least know how to game.. so. dreading. it.